Saturday, March 31, 2007
I AM SO FAN ~!
I been thinking alot this few days , since i am sick and i rest alot at home , and i really think alot alot !
What you people know about me ? Do you really know what i am going through ? And of cause please dont assume that YOU know me well ! Cause i myself dont even know myself much ! I really hate this feeling ! It back again and again !
I dont really feel like going church anymore ! I think back , before i went church i am very happy . Hung out , although sometimes did some bad stuffs but at least it makes me happy . But now , after i went church , i dont find it interesting to me anymore ! I dont the past passion anymore ! I am so dry i can say . Anything that come from my cell group , it just will irritate me . I dont know why so dont as me why ! I really feel like becoming back the old self me ! BAD person ! I know i am bad now too but i want to be even more BAD !
Smoke and Drinking maybe suit me more for me this kind of people !
Hunging around too much with my church people might be a bad idea !
Cause i only influence them into bad and i dont want any of them to be like me esp those younger one !
My cell group leader had said something right ! I had been not able to love people anymore .
Did you all ever think? After so much effort you had done , will they appreciate ? Mostly i guess they might only take it as granted ! So forget it man !
Why cant they just dont bother me anymore ! It just irritate me .
written at 3/31/2007 02:01:00 AM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
OH yes finally my blog back~!
for past weeks my blog totally cannot work !
wahaha !
written at 3/29/2007 12:34:00 AM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
it been sometimes i had update my blog !
2day suddenly got this feeling to update!
haiz .. it 3.33am now ! and i am so sian !
I was totally pissed off just now by my cell group leader! Damn it man ! I was informed there will be PM but firstly i thought it be at jurong ! Ofcos i cannot make it for it as i meeting frens which i eariler made arrangement. Then after that i heard it will be at MH's house 6pm. 6pm i still cannot make it on time due to school late dismiss but i really don't mind going down, thought be later . Mh told me to inform PY myself .
Then i called .. what i get , being kp ! damn it .. i just want to double confirm the time and tell her i will be late. THAT ALL ! I HAD NO CHANCE TO SAY AT ALL . Then she shoot everything out and hung ! WAD THE FUCK IS THIS ? IF I CANNOT SAY ANYTHING THEN I SHALL NOT CALL ANYMORE ! WHAT THE HELL IS THIS ? I am really really pissed off ! TOTALLY PISSED OFF !
Then went cycling along in my area! thz to kevin , he accompany me to drink coffee somewhere near his house. I really need someone to talk to at that moment. I see through my hp , i cannot find any. But thz to him . Had talk alot with him. Felt more comfortable! Haiz what is this ?
PISSED OFF
written at 3/13/2007 03:35:00 AM
